Why do i hate people so much?
Because they have the ability to be soooo cruel. To this day my heart skips a beat when i see the people that have been cruel to me. I shrink back into my imaginary shell and throw the thought 'I am invisible!' at them in the hopes that they won't see me and walk away.
And when they do notice your hurt and your feelings of betrayal, they make a choice to apologise or to go on ignoring them.
If they apologise...who do they apologise for? They apologise so that if you can't bring yourself to forgive them, it is all your fault. So they can live with a guilt free conscience. So they themselves can feel better about themselves while you still rely on your non-existent telepathy, and fragile shells.
And ironically it is the people who you trust the most who betray you worst.
Just like MJJ's lecture at the Oxford University.
'...If you enter this world knowing you are loved and you leave this world knowing the same, then everything that happens in between can be dealt with...But if you don't have that memory of being loved, you are condemned to search the world for something to fill you up. But no matter how much money you make, or how famous you become, you will still feel empty. What you are really searching for is unconditional love, unqualified acceptance. And that was the one thing that was denied to you at birth...'