Have you ever woken up one morning and realised that you are not the 'you' that you once were. Or that you once aspired to be?
To think that you spent, what about say 16 years trying to be someone. Then you wake up and somewhere between 16 and 17 you changed. You started to actually talk to people. Maybe even trust them. To think that after how many years of trying to keep people out, you wake up and realise that you might not have succeeded as well as you hoped.
And even if you did let people in and trusted them, what's to say that they don't one day turn around and abuse that trust. Well people have been doing that for centuries, but what if this one time it was unforgiveable?
And why do people have such an obsession with trying to get to know other people. Isn't it enough to have someone to talk to. As oppossed to just thinking about stuff. Randomly letting your self get lost in your thoughts. Thinking too much is probably the way most new technology was invented.
And when we do think we know someone, do we really know them? Or are we simply thinking we know them because that's the side of them that they have chosen us to get to know.
And then when you meet some of their other friends they do this whole split personality thing. Where they try to be the same person that both people know. Say a party person and a freak at the same time. Split personality. They try to ba the same person thet they know each person knows.
'...and then there's that big awkward silence...' shrek
now he was a wise guy. he was an ogre to everybody. Well he was an ogre with a nice heart. nobody knew it though because he isolated himself away from them. No split personality. he appeared the same to every one and no one cared cbecause no one liked him except for the Donkey until the end with the ridiculous wedding and lovey dovey finish
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'...she started blow drying her hair and wondered what it would be like to suffer from real depression. Serious, medication-dependent depression. To every morning wake up and mercilessly pick on yourself, refusing to see anything good in the mirror, to walk around the house dragging your lethargic, heavy shadow after you, to wish you were with anybody, anywhere, but here, with your own self....' except that's the only place she wanted to be
two canadian clubs and dry at the martini den by
gabrielle williams
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Do people live for themselves or for other people?
Do we live a a playing piece on someone else's chess board, or some other remarkably slow unfolding game. Chess because it is slow, what one person does effects what the next does. If they try to ignore this they will end up in a horrible mess. Ultimately losing.
If someone convinces themselves that other people will have no effect on them what so ever will they be the same person in 10years time of will someone else's opinion on them no longer be valid because they themselves have changed due to their experiences.
Ok...so i have nothing to talk about. Today has been one dead boring day. Although....there's this thing. Do some people who go around judging people really judge them or do they judge themselves? More specifically...when will people get sick of telling me that i will go to hell?!
Just because i don't hold the same beliefs as someone else does, by no reason, mean that i have no morals. Just because i don't wholly believe in the religion that i was born into doesn't mean that i will reject every other religion that i am exposed to. For anybody who knows me, they know that i have strong beliefs. When i believe in some thing i believe in it whole heartedly. I do not believe in cancelling out a whole religion. I believe that it is still entirely valid. Just not what i believe i want from life. Not what i believe religion should be.
Waiting for people to get sick of telling me i'll end up in Hell
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the philosophy is that if sit and think of the direction your life is taking you will somehow come to the realisation that you need god in you life?
how does this work?
Sometimes i believe when people tell me that god is real and that he talks to them works in their life and all that stuff, but, at other times i start to wonder is their faith really real?
Like at this really christian school, would it be 'cool' to be christian? and in which case is it really up to thse people to try and change the people who don't follow a certain religion?
And even so is it really up to them to pass judement on those who dont believe? because by trying to change them that is what they are doing.
they are passing judgements on what a person does or does not believe and then trying to change them so that it suits their own needs or so that they reap the rewards. If there are indeed any to start off with.
Does religion actually have a point?
To some i suppose they would find solace in the fact that they have someone to permanently rely on. Like that chick who gave her testimony at chapel today. She's been through a heck of a lot. And she believes that through it she found god...but is what she found just a pigment of some extraordinary person's imagination thousands of years ago?
Does god really exist? and can you believe in him with out the confines of religion?
does god really perform miracles? or is it just an event brought on by wishful thinking?
Can angels exist with out god to guide them?
Just a philosophical thought for today...