well, i guess i'm feeling less sorry for myself today. Probably accounted for by the severe lack of sleep i suffered last night.
Anyways- it's not a monday and i've have posted twice in the last week! YAY me! (Twice in 2 days-i think)
GUESS WHAT?! I leave for holidays tomorrow night. I have a 6p.m. flight to wellington. Then we drive around for a few days before catching up with my cousins in Auckland. Then it's off to fiji-where my old uncle will have just got married, to catch up with aunts uncles and the rest of the indian population[who i am probably related to also], then back to sydney on the 16th. Hopefully the flight is running on time and we have no dramas with customs, cause then that afternoon it's off to gangshow (thanks gaz for the lift) pretty much straight away.
WOW! Am i going to be tired. Oh well, that's what Red Bull is for! :P
anyways will hopefully see everyone tonight at bec's-don't worry nothing's been organised yet. But it will be.
And now i think i had better be off-i have to finish packing and do some last minute things at the shops. alk to you all soon-or when i get back.
~.~
Friday, July 01, 2005
hmmm, that last actual meaningful post was actually supposed to be a draft but i guess i must have hit the wrong button.
anyways seeing as it went up i may as well continue-sayers as usual my 'that's all i have to say about that' was really meant to say that really that is all i want to say at that particular point in time. In addition to that though-i've basically been left to feel really stupid and all my trust issues and defensive walls are right back up again. I hate knowing that i do that whenever i feel hurt by someone, but it's what i do best nowadays and it stops people kicking me when i'm down.
So, i'll try not to be crabby over the next few weeks-even more so because i'm on holidays, but basically i feel really stupid and pathetic and sorry for myself at the moment. Mostly because i should have seen the avalanche coming-it was basically the same thing i went through with dave, but still i didn't do anything. I should have seen it coming.
Why am i so blind sometimes (NO! don't answer that :P) And why is it that even though certain people know why my walls are so thick and 'people proof', they still wonder why they go up when they go up?
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!
AUGHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
ok, think i'm done jumping up and down and pulling my hair out-i'm off to find a wig.
~.~
anyways seeing as it went up i may as well continue-sayers as usual my 'that's all i have to say about that' was really meant to say that really that is all i want to say at that particular point in time. In addition to that though-i've basically been left to feel really stupid and all my trust issues and defensive walls are right back up again. I hate knowing that i do that whenever i feel hurt by someone, but it's what i do best nowadays and it stops people kicking me when i'm down.
So, i'll try not to be crabby over the next few weeks-even more so because i'm on holidays, but basically i feel really stupid and pathetic and sorry for myself at the moment. Mostly because i should have seen the avalanche coming-it was basically the same thing i went through with dave, but still i didn't do anything. I should have seen it coming.
Why am i so blind sometimes (NO! don't answer that :P) And why is it that even though certain people know why my walls are so thick and 'people proof', they still wonder why they go up when they go up?
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!
AUGHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
ok, think i'm done jumping up and down and pulling my hair out-i'm off to find a wig.
~.~
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