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from addy's blog
from askmen.com

a woman loves to be treated like she's a little girl. women want men who are stronger than they are. they also want a man who can take care of them, but not necessarily financially. being protective and showing little points of etiquette are great ways of demonstrating masculine strength. pulling out chairs, putting your hand on her back to guide her across a street and helping her put her coat on are all protective gestures that let her know she is with a man.women notice everything -- and i mean everything . they are masters at detecting details and their meanings. so, even the smallest gesture, when done earnestly and thoughtfully, will not only be appreciated, but can earn you serious bedtime points.i'm not talking about just helping out around the house. some men think doing the dishes is the height of romantic expression. while this is a nice thought, it isn't enough. cleaning up after yourself is pretty much expected of you, not hoped for.tell her she's beautifulwomen will never tire of hearing this. but they'll love it even more if it's unexpected.write her a hand-written lettere-mail may be one of the most revolutionary inventions of this generation, but it sucked something very important out of life: the mystery and romanticism of the hand-written letter.take her out for lunchagain, it's the element of surprise that does the trick. you'll be the highlight of her day, especially when her coworkers see that she has such an awesome man.take her on an "official" datebonus points if you take her to a fancy place where dress is formal (you know women love dressing up).buy her a token presentone day, for no reason, show up with a thoughtful little gift.give her a flowerdon't wait for valentine's day or her birthday. under no circumstances should you give her a cactus and pretend it's an exotic plant.

LOL

finished uni whooot!!!!!

did any one know that there are 2 430's in a day. and one of them is way too early!!!! Great views and i loved it beyond belief. Am still alive and have renewed faith in flying skills.

last night city-soooooooooooo much fun. If you missed out tooo bad! we had the best time ever!!

Enough said Miss A? (Guess what Miss A-i got 3 posts into 1)

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Adipose Connective Tissue White Fat ...

I stole this from eternal light and i hope they don't mind lol

[] I am bisexual or homosexual.
[x] I've consumed alcohol.
[x] I've run away from home.
[x ] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[ ] I listen to political music.
[ ] I collect comic books.
[x] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[ ] I open up to others easily.
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world
[x] I watch the news.
[x] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[ ] I own an iPod or MP3 player
[ ] I own something from Hot Topic
[x] I love Disney Movies.
[ ] I am a sucker for hair/eyes.
[x] I don't kill bugs.
[x] I curse regularly.
[ ] I paid for that cell phone ringtone.
[ ] I am a sports fanatic.
[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name.
[ ] I've slipped out an "lol" in a real conversation.
[ ] I love Spam.
[x] I bake well.
[x] I would wear pajamas to school.
[ ] I own something from Abercrombie.
[x ] I have a job.
[ ] I love Martha Stewart.
[x ] I am in love with love.
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I am self conscious.
[ ] I like to laugh.
[ ] I smoke a pack a day.
[ ] I loved Perks of Being a Wallflower.
[ ] I loved Go Ask Alice.
[ ] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[x] I eat fast food weekly.
[x] I've been out of this country.
[x] I believe in ghosts.
[x] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I am really ticklish.
[ ] I see a therapist.
[ ] I love white chocolate.
[ ] I bite my nails.
[ ] I am comfortable with being me.
[ ] I play computer games/video games.
[ ] I'm single.
[ ] I'm in a myspace relationship.
[x] Gotten lost in your city.
[x] Saw a shooting star.
[ ] I had a serious Surgery.
[x] Gone out in public in your pajamas.
[x ] I have kissed a stranger
[x ] Hugged a stranger.
[x ] Been in a fist fight.
[ ] Been arrested.
[ ] laughed and had milk/RICE come out of your nose.
[x ] Pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[ ] Made out in an elevator
[ ] Swore at your parents
[x] Kicked a guy where it hurts
[x]Been close to love.
[x]Been to a casino.
[ ] Been skydiving.
[ ] Broken a bone.
[x ] Skipped school.
[x ] Flashed someone.
[ ] Saw a therapist
[ ] Have a personality disorder (several....lol)
[ ] Taken anti psychotic meds
[ ] Taken Valium
[x] Done a split.
[x] Played spin the bottle.
[x ] Gotten stitches.
[ ] Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour
[x] Bitten someone.
[ ] Been to Niagara Falls
[x ] Gotten the chicken pox
[x ] Kissed a member of the same sex.
[ ]Crashed into a friend's car
[ ] Been to Japan
[x] Ridden in a taxi.
[x] Shoplifted.
[x] Been fired
[x] Ever had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[x] Had feelings for someone who didnt have them back
[x] Stole something from your job.
[ ] Gone on a blind date.
[ ] Lied to a friend
[ ] Had a crush on a teacher/sub
[ ] Celebrated mardigras in New Orleans
[ ] Been to Europe.
[ ]Slept with a co-worker.
[ ] Been married.
[ ] Gotten divorced
[ ] Had children
[x ] Saw someone dying.
[ ] Been to Africa
[x] Driven over 400 miles in one day
[x] Been to Canada
[ ] Been to Mexico.
[x] Been on a plane.
[ ] Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
[ ] Thrown up in a bar
[x] Eaten Sushi.
[ ] Been snowboarding.
[ ] Been Skiing
[x] Met someone in person from the internet.
[ ] Been moshing at a rock show.
[ ] Been to a moto cross show
[x] Lost a child
[x ] Gone to college
[ ] Done hard drugs
[ x] Taken painkillers
[x] Had someone cheat on you.
[x] Miss someone right now.
[ ] Don't like anyone in your town enough to call them a "friend".

P.s: The x's in the boxes means it is true, the blanks mean it is false.

long long long long day

could really do with a...

hehe...despite the fact that I have got no sleep I'm actually pretty good. I didnt sleep last night...I had a Gilmore Girls Marathon instead. I think I made a pretty decent ding into season 3 as well. Anyways, got to uni ok thanks for driving S...went to the leture where it was my turn this week to do the little head noddy/snappy thing that B was doing last week. That was until I was so very rudely awaken by my stomach...you know its loud when people 3 rows away turn around...oops!
Finished of my assignment...not overly happy but fixed a couple grammatical errors, forged a couple of signatures and I was set...Pretty sure I did the head snappy/noddy thing all the way home. Flicking violently from dead to overactive...soooo confusing.
Um...got home had a 40 minute nap and now i'm all ready again...let me at 'em. Pretty happy to get stuck back into Psych...blergh 1 exam left...I think I have work conned into letting me work full-time this summer too...

5 Months...

happy halloween people!

I made it to uni and back all by my ownsome today...:) I really need to do the whole public transport thing more often so that I can at least say I can do it if i have to...

so...got up this morning and decided that I wanted breakfast. Yeh I was surprised too. Anyways started to make myself a cup of coffee to dunk my toasted muffins in. Got to the fridge and we had no milk. So I had to drink my coffee black-which isnt a problem but i make white coffee stronger than black so my coffee was too strong. Anyway buttered my muffins and decided a nice bit of jam wouldnt go astry seeing as i now couldnt dunk my muffins into my coffee. (in my head this logic makes perfect sense-white coffee for dunking and black for caffeine

Well guess what...no jam. Some smart arse had put a completely empty jar back into the refrigerator. So i had to have my muffins perfectly buttered edge to edge just like i like them with no jam. And perfectly dry as i didnt have my coffee.

So i decided I should study today seeing as i have to spend the entire day sitting around waiting for this non-existent plumber to come out and take a look at our tap that is still leaking dispite the shower heads being changed twice and a partial bathroom reconstruction within the last 6 months.

Well, guess studying was a bad idea because my computer is not reading the disk properly so...whenever i put the disk in the computer it whirrs really loudly and sounds like its about to break. Lovely really.

Anyways so i spent the morning studying so I decided at about 12ish that i could do with a break. How bout some crackers and dip to go with that? Well that would be possible except we finished the dip last night but meh i can alway eat dry crackers. The closest thing we had was jatz which is fine by me they arent that dry on their own but hey there were only 6 of them left in the packet...so someone ate the packet but decided that they couldnot possibly finish the last 6? Sure.

Well being close to 1 by now i decide hey maybe i should just have some lunch instead. So I made my self a great looking salad. Yes I love salad and my mother is on a health kick at the second so we had every perfect ingredient for salad. grated cheese the good stuff, lettuce, cherry tomatoes (the bite size ones not the ones you have to cut to eat which defeats the purpose of having them small) some croutons ( which i absolutely love when you dont have to make them your self) seaseme seeds (already toasted of course) this was the best salad even if i do say so myself...

no salad dressing=empty containder in the fridge again.

now i'm hungry

ok so i had this huge apologetic blog set up...but i think i've apologised to the point of annoying..so i wont.

okay...so apprarently my 'best date ever post' was getting boring!! Well i guess it is the same thing you read when ever you check then...yeh. My bad-oops.

So really I have nothing to say. My life has been pretty normal-revilving around work and uni and b. Not necessarily in that order. Though I did 32 hours of work last week. Which I find just a little unbelievable because I managed to do every reading for my classes this week. Which admittedly is only 3 but when you consider that I rarely do one completely (my usual is just skim through and ad lib the rest) I thought it was a pretty good effort.

Work-well thats work. Enough said. Except I am glad I get paid to be there because otherwise I doubt I would be bothered to turn up...but it's not as stressful as it has been. $650 did go missing though. Once again it happened on a shift that I was working-well he money didnt go missong on the shift but it was money from that shift that went missing. Unfortunately its also the third time that money has gone missing from a shift that both M and I worked together. I really dont know whats happening to it because I KNOW that it wasnt me, and I'm fairly certain that it wasnt M so...who was it? Well I'll tell you when I find out.

Which leads me to my third big thing of the week...well ot really just of the week. B.
*smiles*

*more smiling*

*still smiling*

Saw TC this morning. Wow he looks good, tanned and hairier than I remember. Lost some weight too. Glad to hear that he's happy. Gladder still to see pics of where he's been. Boy does that place look good-How bout that Bondi hey?! :) Always impressed with the ability to become a socialite in a place where there appears to be not much at all. Walking talking advert for heat humidity and outbackness.

HEHEHE MOOSE!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAHAHA!!! JUST DONT SAY IT WHILE I'M DRIVING...I MIGHT CRASH FROM LAUGHING TOO HARD!!!!!!!!!!!!!
~.~

Guess I've just come back from another one of those 'best date ever' moments. Day started off meh-I had to get out of bed for starters. After I left home though things started to look up pretty fast. B you hit a new heights everytime I see you. Sorry about yesterday but thanks for the ramen...one day I will make it from scratch for you. It looks easy. It was funny picking up that stuff at the store though...it was the only thing i bought. How embaressing...slightly more so than when your sister wanted you to put on her bracelet and said hi to the wrong place. Hehe. Oh and when she was vaccuuming your room...ok that was just slightly obvious...

But for people who have no idea what any of those connotations are for and what they mean...basically the short version is that B is the bestest guy ever and I love him to bits. Hehe.




~.~

Asignments that dont do themselves!! Why are they so complicated?!

People who say they will be there and dont turn up...they dont even call to say they cant make it. They assume you dont have a life because you know less people than them or something and that you can afford to waste your whole day!! Well I turned down a much needed shift this morning because of you so screw you!!!!

Asignments that dont do themselves!! Why are they so complicated?!

When work leaves 30 different piles of different stuff for you to deal with and then doesnt give you shifts and then complains that you havent finished them. And then makes more piles which dont have labels so you cant figure out whats going on.

Asignments that dont do themselves!! Why are they so complicated?!

Procrastination...why is it so easy to do?! If it were harder it might make the stuff i need to do more attractive.

Asignments that dont do themselves!! Why are they so complicated?!

Cravings...havent bought another deck but I really want to. I'm scared that I'll let certain people down yet again. I know it's stress and its a bad habit I got myself into and i hope that people understand that I'm not ready to leave it behind just yet. I know that doesnt make sense and people think I'm stupid...but I think I'm stupid so whats new...

Asignments that dont do themselves!! Why are they so complicated?!

Stupid computer cutting and pasting the wrong spelling of 'assignments' over and over again! GARRR!!!!

~.~

B...Consider me publically declaring my love for you...

happy days happy days happy days
although i'm getting soft in terms of work...5days straight and my feet are killing me
gone are the days where i could work 7days a week and not feel a thing
i'm getting old
was in bed before midnight last night too
garrrr

Just got back from the Hardware store. I finally decided to stop procratinating about fixing my bed and actually do something. So I asked for help and got it...I was told that unless there was something wrong with the way I hammered the nails in I should be able to nail the thing that fell off back in to place. This was probably about 30 seconds before this guy decided to ask me if i knew what a hammer was...grrr

Feeling better than I was yesterday...for one my car started this morning and did not stop dead at the bottom of my street. And I have the knowledge that I dont have to go to some music performance thing because my mother can't be bothered to see her youngest child finish school.

Next thing on the list...finish doornock appeal for the heart foundation. Well...maybe after I do some work on Psych.


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www.donottouchme.blogspot.com

Read the one about the McDonald's complaint...lol.
Thanks B for finding it....it made me laugh.

~.~

hehe...dont buy food from the West Pennent Hills Woolies :D

Oh, and I would have written this last night except that I sat down at about 1030pm and then woke up still infront of my computer an hour ago. (730am) That's what you call for pulling an all nighter I guess.

The Devil Wears Prada (and shoes!!!!) is very much like Suddenly 30 so...if you dont want to pay to see a remake-dont but I thought it was definately the company that made it all worth the while.

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Firstly...my flashing tongue arrived yesterday. I am excited and I want to try it out. The only problem is that it is somewhat bigger than I was expecting. But its a flashing toungue!! YAY!

Secondly...this is not a joke! I have a ghost in my house. I've been spending more time at home alone during the days in an effort to stay off the streets and out of the pubs (and to not spend money cause I need it for uni) and I swear I can hear people walking around the house. And quite a few times I've got up and gone to see whos come home early or whatever only to realise that theres only me home. I have the tv off and no radio because most of the time I'm studying (or procrastinating about doing so) so theoretically there should be no sound around the house. Garrr!! I'm still mourning all that wasted energy of walking to the front of the house and back everytime I hear people walking around out the front.

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{edit}

Mmmm...stuff due monday-should be easy. Psych due thursday....anyone willing to do it for smiles and some cookies?

{edit}

Only slightly stressed...could have something to do with the fact that its 2 am and i'm still not asleep. Just not tired. Too much sugar. Next time we go stargazing we might have to pass on the whipped cream and fairy floss. Just one is sweet enough.

Anyways...I guess shut eye might be good tonight. Meh, sleep is for sleepy people.

By the way, in case anyone was interested...the third Bring It On movie was released to DVD this week. That's right. There are 3 of them; Bring It On, Bring It On Again and Bring It On-All or Nothing. Yes they do all have the same story line...the only difference is that they are prancing around in shorter skirts and target a younger audience. Way to set an example Hollywood.

And now for something different...

My day today was actually really good...i guess after yesterday there really was only one way left to go. But not going to be negetive today. I got to work at 830 and I didnt start till 10 so that gave me sometime to figure out what some of my psych readings actually meant. Had my day of work, which was surprisingly relaxed. But we were still under 2grand at 6pm which for a friday night is way, way beyond bad. Anyways...will get paid till 7 but left at 6 to go to the pub. Not bad considering i was supposed to work till 10. I will definately get paid because it was the manager who took me up there, just not all the way up to 10...she though that was a little unfair.

Had a great night...filled my lungs with more smoke than I expected but...meh. [Stupid Pokie rooms] Had a couple of drinks-but they were only Cokes damn green p's. [7months and counting] Organised to go and get somewhat pissed next friday...highly unlikely but if anyone would like to do something {edit} they can feel free to join me up at the 'Winsto'. {edit}

Now home and really tired but am going to do it all again tomorrow....work at 9-7. Running out of essentials so i have to do a shop tomorrow...which sux because I'm also running out of essential money. Garrrr!!

Glad that yesterday's over, todays better and tommorow's a blank slate...

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DISCLAIMER: Ok, so i've just looked back at the type of things I've written recently and they seem largely negetive so i do regret this post...but it is how i feel. I do promise that there were plenty of great days between these crap ones but its the crap that are standing out at the moment.

Hmm, where to start. It would appear that I have had another crap day. I dont know why really...I woke up really excited about my day...but nothing seemed to go and by about 12 i was in a pretty foul mood which really only serves to make everything seem worse than it actually is.

It wasnt really anything specific...well maybe it was. I noticed it was sunny today. I like the rain so i wasnt happy about that first up. I guess today I was just over thinking. There's so much I want to say and I know it would make things so much easier for myself and other people. In the sense that people would be able to understand why some of the simplest things can sometimes make me uncomfortable beyond belief.

I had a fight with a co-worker. Never a good thing after which I actually had a cry. I maintain that I was born with out tear-ducts so this was a feat in itself.

I have to make UAC decisions for the 4th year in a row. You can imagine how stressful this was and it doesnt get any easier with experience.

Huge money issues going on at the moment. Feel like my life should not revolve around money...but it does and that frustrates me to no end.

People around me are having a hard time and I dont feel like its fair that I voice myopinions on these sorts of trivial things. Which I guess just puts more pressure on me. I want to help them more than I want to help myself. I guess thats my own fault.

mehmehmeh

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Ode to my stress filled course...


Pressure pushing down on me Pressing down on you no man ask for Under pressure - that burns a building down Splits a family in two Puts people on streets It's the terror of knowing What this world is about Watching some good friends Screaming let me out Pray tomorrow - gets me higher Pressure on people - people on streets She been around Kicked my brains round the floor These are the days it rains but it never pours People on streets People on streets It's the terror of knowing What this world is about Watching some good friends Screaming let me out Pray tomorrow - high higher Turned away from it all like a blind man Sat on a fence but it don't work Keep coming up with love but it's so slashed and torn Why - Ooooh Insanity laughs under pressure we're cracking Can't we give ourselves one more chance Why can't we give love that one more chance Why can't we give love Give love give love give love give love Give love give love give love Love's such an old fashioned word And love dares you to care for The people on the edge of the night And love dares you to change our way of Caring about ourselves This is our last dance This is our last dance This is ourselves Under pressure Under pressure Pressure

~if you dont know it...i'll be surprised~

Can you say crap day. No sleep. Get to uni and the coffee was bitter. Ok the psych lecture was good. Crabby after that. Sit down to wait for photocopies and close my eyes. [next thing i know i'm being woken up by 2 loud ladies who really only wanted the couch to sit on while eating lunch.] B? Please no more time jokes!! You might think they are funny but I cant deal with them on a good day. I'm way to podantic about time. Then the tute forced me to think-not a bad thing ordinarily-but really not a good idea when i'm going on no sleep. I realise the no sleep is my problem and I really try not to take it out on people but I get impatient and I think i pissed off way too many people today.

The thing is I get annoyed at myself for how much things annoy me when I'm sleepy and then i get crabby because things are annoying me and then I get even more crabby because I know I'm being unreasonable and then I get crabby because I know if i werent tired I wouldnt be crabby and then I'm crabby for being unreasonable about everything when its my fault to start off with...and somewhere in all that I start to break and then I realise I'm breaking and I start taking it out on other people even more and I get home feeling tired, drained, exhausted and so unbelievably guilty at my unreasonableness.

And I still have a bloody flute lesson to do and I cant stand how much the little girl talks because we never get any actual fluting done and we have no time for aural exercises or new pieces and I know I'm going to be crabby then and then I have to come home and face my family...,

Sometimes I wish i could just curl up and forget about everything and start all over again...

Hey who would have known...i've hit 200 posts as well.

Don't Leave Home

Like a ghost don't need a key Your best friend I've come to be Please don't think of getting up for me You don't even need to speak When I've been here for just one day You'll already miss me if I go away So close the blinds and shut the door You won't need other friends anymore Oh don't leave home, oh don't leave home If you're cold I'll keep you warm If you're low just hold on Cause I will be your safety Oh don't leave home And I arrived when you were weak I'll make you weaker, weaker still Now all your love you give to me When your heart is all I need Oh don't leave home, oh don't leave home If you're cold I'll keep you warm If you're low just hold on Cause I will be your safety Oh don't leave home Oh how quiet, quiet the world can be When it's just you and little me Everything is clear and everything is new So you won't be leaving will you Oh don't leave home, oh don't leave home If you're cold I'll keep you warm If you're low just hold on Cause I will be your safety Oh don't leave home

Dido

All is forgiven I got 10 tulips instead. Now all thats annoying is that i spoilt my own surprise. Hold up B, that's your fault...you and your lack of observational skills.

How very cliched to pretend to forget...can I suggest something else next time?! Although it did throw me off the scent. I had no idea you could be so subtle. :P

Good bye kiss?!

can you say stressed?! I need more time, I dont have enough hours in the day to do all the things that i need/want to do.


You need self discipline to get it and its not fair. Whats my reaction to stress? Well I get unhappy...but i dont say anything and I keep smiling and eventually some poor bugger will see me snap in a bad way. I wonder is life always supposed to be this stressful?

~.~

The other day I saw the cutest thing ever. I was driving to Brendon's party and on the way I saw this guy walking down the sidewalk. Well, actually i saw many guys walking down the side walk but there was somehting oddly eye-catching about this guy. This guy was walking down the street in what could only be described as a three piece suit. Well this in itself was strange seeing as it wasnt a particularly cool day...in fact i would go so far as to say it was warm. Anyways, not only was this guy walking down the street in a suit but in his hands was the sweetest site ever. He was holdiong a red flower in one hand and in the other he had a very cliched box of chocolates complete with an oversized ribbon wrapped around it.

You must be thinking that for some one who is pretty much blind i seem to be pretty observant at this point in time and to all of you i would like to point out that just as my averted eyes returned to the road, I realised that I was getting very close to the center line of the road and nearly headed into the curb in an attempt to straighten up. My thoughts on this were that he must be the sweetest guy in the world to be buying his girlfriend (i'd assume) a box of chocolates and a flower.

Unfortunately I was wrong. This guy walking down the sidewalk could not possibly be the sweetest guy in the world for doing this for his assumed girlfriend. The reason I know this is because it quite clearly wasnt my boyfriend walking down the side of the road with a box of chocolates and some flowers.

Altough, today I found him sitting in a food court with a rose and a incribed book. Which to me me is just as good and makes him the best boyfriend in the world. So thanks for the book B. I love it and I already have heaps of ideas running through my head from it. Althoght it did mean that I spent and entire night pouring over a book instead of reading for uni but i still have one day in my make believe weekend to do it in. Thanks B-the whole day was awsome!!

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Being tired is a very bad state (for me anyways). Its one where its like being drunk (not that i have ever been drunk enough to know) everything slows itself down and your mouth seems to work about 3 times the speed of you brain. Which generally means that the things that come out of my mouth have not been thought through and may not be what i want to say...or they might just be mis-articulated attempts at what i at some point in time intended to say. In which case what results is usually a very confused state of babble...or a highly intellectual state of incoherentness. In which case please dont try to have a serious conversation with me when i am tired because i may come out with some surprising things. (Or just some skeletons that weren't ready to some out just yet) On the other hand it might be the best time to have a conversation with me because it would be the time I would probably tell the most truth and being unable to think of reasonable excuses or reasons to get out of answering would probably tell you exactly what i am thinking...so best stay out of my head. It even scares me sometimes.

29 July
taken from vanna's blog
which was then taken from addy's blog

1. Girls hate it when guys say perverted things.
3. Girls love to feel special, even though they might not show it.
5. When girls are online, they want the guy to instant message them first, and they literally burn up inside when they're not messaged. Of course, when they are messaged, they play it all cool and go "oh, hey" as if they just discovered your message.
8. Girls find it awfully attractive when guys wear just a white t-shirt and jeans and yet they happen to look awesome in it.
9. Remember. Sense of humor. GIRLS LOVE GUYS WHO CAN MAKE THEM LAUGH.
10. Girls hate guys with bad hygiene. So put on that deodorant and clip those nails!
11. Girls love guys who know how to dance.
12. Girls love it when a guy pulls them close by the waist.
13. Girls go crazy when a guy smells good.
14. Girls hate cocky guys.
20. When a guy says something really sentimental, girls will remember it forever.
25. Guys who can sing are a major turn on.26. Guitarists are sexy.28. When a girl is crying, she feels a lot safer if you pull her close and tell her that everything is going to be alright.
32. When a girl calls you her loser or her dork, it usually means she's attracted to you.
34. Girls will never say I love you unless you say it first. But that doesn't mean she doesn't want to scream it from the top of her lungs.
38. A girl will cry over you a lot more than you think.
39. A girl's wounds can last awhile. And when I say awhile, I mean awhile.
41. When a girl cooks for you, you know you mean a lot to her.

hey all, nona's in the process of popping at the moment and has been since midnight. Ouch!!

For all those who were wondering, the massive high at Tim's party was the result of THE CREAMING SODA!!!!!!!! and NOT the red bull...contrary to popular belief!!

yay for picture of bbq's. Finally. Find the Benny and the vortex and win a prize!!

yay for bbqs...BBQ was great today. Thanks to Tim turning 21 which made it possible. Although on a down side I spent at least 4 hours running around with wings which means thats prolly at least 4 hours tomoorow that i wont be running around with wings tomorrow.

Smiles go to Aimes for getting stuck up a tree 2 times [or was it 3] and to Ben who climbed up a tree to try to get down a vortex. I think we are alll glad that you didnt fall and Very glad that the brick didnt get thrown at the wrong angle to hit anybody [incl. Pete] on the head. Or anywhere else-as a brick it may have hurt.

Note to anyone wondering...to get anything stuck in a tree out, it may not be the best idea to throw more things at it in an attempt to dislodge it. Sometimes they get stuck too.

Photos would be up except that i left the camera in the car-apologies.

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Happy birthday Ali and Nona (i think nona is on ali's nose in this pic)...it was a great night and i don't know where half my photos went to. Either I took them with someone else's camera or the foto-faery came and reclaimed what was rightfully theirs.

And yay for getting the results that I needed but wasn't expecting!!

Muzz and Ellie's wedding over the weekend. Yes it was fun. Yes it was amazing. Yes they got married.

very disturbing day at work...

a customer was having issues with a price and wanted a refund in a situation that we would ordinarily not do one but i offered one anyways cause she was very sweet and it was partly our fault...

me: if you have any problems when you bring it back just tell them you spoke to Pez and she said it was ok.
customer: Pez, P-E-Z...oh like the lolly
me: yeh thats right
customer: right, and just as sweet
me: um yeh sure
customer: a mystery with every lick!
me: um...er...what the...if you say so?!

sweet lady but what the hell? how do you respond to something like that?

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hows this for something new...

last night was really something different...except that there was still one thing missing. Yes B, i missed you and think (nup- i know) i would have had more fun if you were there.

what was last night? Well Kat and i met at Sary's house then off to City Extra for dinner, where Kat and I struggled to stop reading the backs of the toilet doors and marvelled at the little hats lining the mirror.

After which we headed to a pub next to the Innkeeper...some drive through bottle-o that i pass every time I go to uni but never noticed before. Where, believe it or not-I played pool. Badly of course but i still had fun, and can i just add at this point that the girls have much more patience than Matty has at all.

Quick trip back home to drop off kat and the car, then off to the Roxy which apart from initially really bad music (it got pregressively better) was pretty fum, met some insane people but they made the night go even faster...

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So now I'm on holidays. So much time to do something worthwhile in. So little to do that is worthwhile. Eat, sleep, soccer. Fantastic, but I crave something else to fill the gaps, something more memorable.

...halfway down this page you'll find a new post...

Where has all my motivation gone? I'm sure I left some lying aroung for this exact moment...the moment when I have one assessment left and a week to do it in which will be plenty because its only a 1500 word report. However, I've left it to a relative last minute (its due tomorrow) and I can't seen to bring myself to sit down and finish it. Instead I find myself day-dreaming and thinking about how to spend the time after I get it finished!!

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I'm going to fail.

I'm going to fail because I cant write a stupid 500 word essay.

I haven't written one of those since I was about 13.

I'm going to fail because I did too much research and I can't limit my essay to 500 words. I'm about 1/3 through and I have about 800 words!

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This Girl...

There once was a girl who lived in a box. It was a larger sized box. There was nothing special about this box. It was an ordinary looking box with no adornments or decorations of any kind. This girl lived here day after day. No one knew about this girl and her box. She lived alone and day after day she searched for an opening for this box. You see no one knew about this girls life in this box. She had everything she needed in her box. There wasn’t a great deal of light in this box of hers. But on the other hand, this box was not completely devoid of all light. It was fairly normal.

Until one day this girl noticed a sliver of light that was brighter than the light already in this box. She searched high and low to find the source of this life to no avail. One day she looked up. What she saw was a small opening in her box. One that was new. She hadn’t noticed this before. Try as she might though this girl could not reach the hole. One day this girl put everything together into a pile and climbed to the top of the pile of household objects.

She climbed over the toaster. Over the kitchen table and around the television. And using the kitchen sink as a final stepping stone this girl reached the source of unnatural light in her box. As she looked outside she found a person sitting calmly on top of her box. She knocked and there was no response she yelled and the was again no response.

The girl decided to investigate what would be on the other side of the box. She did this by locating a set of kitchen knives which were located under the sofa and between the hairdryer and the mattress. Slowly this girl started to scrape at the edges of the hole until the blade of each knife was blunt. When there were no knives left this girl started using whatever utensil she could find in order to make this hole bigger.

After a few days the girl found that the hole was just big enough to crawl through. This is exactly what this girl did. When she got to the other side. She found a person still sitting on the other side. She went up to this person and asked them why they were sitting on her box. They told her that he too was stuck inside a box just like hers. Until he found a light also. He did nearly the same as her in that he tried to make the hole bigger so that he too could see what lay outside the box.

He invited this girl further out of her box to take a look at what else existed outside her box. The girl looked around her and what she saw amazed her. Around her box lay a sea of boxes. Just like hers. And just like her some of them had other people sitting on the top of it. Some of them had holes and others didn’t.

This girl was amazed and repulsed in the same breath. She took a good look around and drank in the new view. After a while the boy invited her to join him in his box for a while. The girl agreed and followed him jumping from one box to another until they reached one that had a slightly larger hole in the top.

The boy told her it was because he liked to watch people coming in and out of their boxes. So he made his hole bigger so that he could some and go as he pleased. The girl looked around and noted that everything looked the same from here as it did from her box. The girl paused for a minute and random thoughts ran through her head.

After a few minutes the girl turned and climbed back over the other boxes in the direction of hers. She found it safe just as she had left it. Wordlessly she climbed back into the box. When inside she covered her hole with bits of card to keep the light out.

She placed every last bit of furniture back in its place. She sharpened her knives and placed her hardware tools back where they belonged. And when everything was back in its rightful place, this girl vowed never to leave her box again.


(the results of my boredom)

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draft from ages ago that never go published....that i just found...at a time when i realised i hadn't posted in a while...and...


tim says...

Anything going on with all this 'love' talk at the moment? The picture, the cartoon, your MSN name, etc. One might think our Pez had gone and gotten herself smitten with someone. I don't mean to be rude, insensitive or intrude.

payal says...

actually i hadn't noticed...(firstly)i figured that people may have jumped to the wrong conclusion about me posting that last cartoon but really, i just thought the message it sent out was actually pretty spot on. Not in terms of love but in terms of domestic violence. (propbably the exact opposite of love and peoples first conclusions)

Secondly the picture...maybe i really am just a softie at heart. It was sweet and I looked at it at a time when i felt pretty isolated and alone and it make me feel better. Not because of the whole couple thing (I'm still a cynic when it comes to love) but because it is very simple but as an artwork has so many different levels and art makes me lose myself for a little bit. Would you believe I sat looking at it for about 15mins when i first saw it? In this case, I liked it and it reminded me of things that (ask me again in person...cant find the right words right now.)

Lastly...my msn name. I wanted people to think, not about me but of what love does to people. If you really love someone then you will stick by them no matter what and while i find the physical violence on the slight extreme, I think that this is what love is. It shouldn't be a compromise...you should be able to vent and scream at the person (not necessarily about them) and feel better after with out them feeling targetted and belittled.

You are not intruding (in fact if you want you are welcome to hit post when you read this) I consider myself an open person. (Distinctive from easy to read) Open in the sense that if you ask me a serious question about my opinion or me or anything I will do my best to answer honestly...I have nothing to hide, and while some people know more about me than others i really don't mind if they share this information. I know that I'm not the easiest person to get along with sometimes and this is probably because I'm not used to sharing my feelings but if you ask me 'how do you feel?' and i have no idea I will try my hardest to put a name to what I'm feeling for you.

Ok, so maybe you didn't need the essay response to a couple of lines which wasn't really and essay sort of question but I don't think I can sum it up in a couple of lines-sorry. But hey if you dont like if you always have the option of just not reading it.

~.~ :D

this seems to sum it all up pretty well

Is France a more violent nation than Australia? Just recently they have had industrial relations reforms suggested there, the same ones that came into place here 2 days ago, and they have erupted in violent riots. Rioting got so out of hand that it required many water canons and armed police to disperse crowds. Is France, as a nation, more violent than Australian or is it just that they feel more passionately about topics that we appear to be very laid back about?

In Australia the reforms were not greeted with arms wide open but we protested in quiet demonstrations, marches and I believe at one stage there was a media campaign launched against the government. I've just noticed recently that the french have made the news for their 'loud' protests to new laws (ie the laws regarding overtly religious symbols in schools elicited a similar response which continued into late last year). Whats going on? Maybe the French are just more passionate than us...but what does that say about both groups as nations?

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Gone are the days of the easy hair cut. When you walked in sat down and 10 minutes later you walked out with shorter hair. This morning it took me 1/2 an hour to get my hair cut. They refused to cut it as was because they didn't know whether it was clean or not (i would have thought that would have been apparent by looking at it...i washed my hair last night) As a result I had to get my hair washed before they would consider doing anything to it. I guess the good thing was that while washing I got to sit in a massaging chair which believe it or not massaged in time to the music they were playing at the time. And if they hadn't played madonna for the entire time i was in there i'm sure i would have appreciated the sentiment more.

In addition to this i had a 10 minute argument with the hair dresser over how to cut MY hair. I would have thought I should have had some say in how I wanted it cut seeing as I (as far as I know) have complete ownership of my hair and will have to live with the results. No I don't want a side fringe no mattter how fashionable you think they are. And yes I do want to take some length off.

All for $27. (No i didn't pay for the wash because I didn't want or need it to start off with) I remember when i was young it used to cost me $9 to get my hair cut. Not because i had friends in high places or because i had that nifty student discount or anything like that...soley because that was the price with out the inflation and all that other crap.

grr...not happy!

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Goodbye kitty...my mother hated the cat and now she has got her way. The cat was picked up this morning and i was very disappointed. I miss him already.

And good bye also to Tim who will leave sydney tomorrow morning to start a new adventure up in the Northern Territory. But amidst all of that he will remember all of us and to send us a blank postcard every now and then just so we now he's still alive.

Speaking of which, the BBQ was fun last night. I saw people last night who i hadn't seen since Lorien's wedding. And they'd grown too!! Leaving me feeling shorter than ever...meh. It was a good night...one which helped me realise that although I will never be completely comfortable in a room full of people that i don't know, i can feign confidence just as easily.

I met a bunch of new people too and...what more can i say. Words just don't seem to be adequate. So...bye Tim. GoodLuck. Don't forget us, and all that other soppy stuff.

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Ok, so we've all met my very cute new kitten Simba...and I'm not sure what's in the Bach Flower drops I was given to put in his water/milk but they make him go absolutely psychotic. It's actually kinda funny giving him his milk in the evenings just to watch him run around on every possible surface of the house and bouncing off the walls...

Anyways, what's not to love about a face like that. I'm turning ino the old cat lady already...and my mother hates him. She complains that everything he does smells bad, his food makes the house smell like fish, he's not a vegetarian, and he takes up too much room. He needs to stay outside but he's not allowed in the laundry because he might mess it up and he can't stay in the garage because he'll scratch the cars.

You name a catly action and its been complained about...go figure.

And for any of my actions that were seen on saturday night-i maintain that I'm heartless. Nothing you saw should change that!! I work hard to maintain that front and i will deny to my dying day that i have feelings and human emotions.

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every body meet my new kitty! Simba! very cute! And every thing has an exclamation point for a reason! Cause its so exciting! And he's so gorgeous! Yay! And its good news! And he's cute! and did I mention gorgeous! yay!

What kind of uni doesn't have a generator? My kind apparently. We had a black out during the tute in which we had a video assessment scheduled. Unfortunately we sat around for an hour waiting for the power to come back on, rescheduled the assessment and were half way out of the room when it came back on.

The tutes are 2 hours long so we go all excited about nothing. We all had to be called back into the room to do the assessment. But really? Don't most places have generators these days? Especailly large places of business etc. hmmmm-so close to getting that extension Oh well...

How to make a Sayers

Ingredients: 3 parts mercy 1 part ambition 1 part beauty

Method: Layer ingredientes in a shot glass. Add a little cocktail umbrella and a dash of curiosity

How to make a pez

Ingredients: 3 parts friendliness 1 part ambition 5 parts uncertainty

Method: Blend at a low speed for 30 seconds. Serve with a slice of curiosity and a pinch of salt. Yum!

two can play at that game

I found the cupboard under the stairs today.

Ten Top Trivia Tips about Pez!

1. Pez is the largest of Saturn's moons.
2. Half a cup of Pez contains only seventeen calories.
3. On average, women blink nearly twice as much as Pez!
4. Pez can eat up to four kilograms of insects in a single night.
5. The first American zoo was built in 1794, and contained only Pez.
6. If you kiss Pez for one minute you will burn six or seven calories.
7. Birds do not sleep in Pez, though they may rest in her from time to time!
8. Pez is the male seed of a flower blossom which has been gathered and treated by bees.
9. Pez can fly at an average speed of fifteen kilometres an hour.
10. The pupil of an octopus's eye is shaped like Pez.

Ten Top Trivia Tips about Sayers!

1. Antarctica is the only continent without Sayers!
2. Sayers is incapable of sleep.
3. Sayers can only be destroyed by intense heat, and is impermeable even to acid!
4. Every day in the UK, four people die putting Sayers on.
5. Sayers has only one weakness - the colour yellow.
6. Sayers was banned from Finland because of not wearing pants.
7. Two grams of Sayers provide enough energy to power a television for over twenty-three hours.
8. During severe windstorms, Sayers may sway several feet to either side.
9. Sayers can pollinate up to six times more efficiently than the honeybee.
10. If you keep a goldfish in a dark room, it will eventually turn into Sayers!

I am interested in - do tell me aboutherhimitthem

Note to self:-
Avoid making non-relationships, pseudo relationships and especially fake relationships. At all costs avoid being fake, and all situations where fake behaviour may arise.

First week of uni over. I think it's safe to say that it got progressively better. The first day I was stuck in a computer basics course that i can't get out of. Again. This will be the third year I am stuck in one of these with no way out. But the other 2 subjects that I'm doing seem ok. I hate politics so social policy should be interesting. And the skills development class seems really interesting so i have a bit of a range of subjects. But that will always be the case.

Friday night was fun-saturday night i crashed. In a big way. I got home from work utterly exhausted. The last 2 days at work have been really demanding because the 2 new managers have no idea what they are doing and don't call Nigel when they need to. As a result they are making mistakes that are starting to cost us. So when I got to work on friday I spent the whole day trying to catch up with work that should have been done between tuesday and thursday. We didn't end up getting most of it done because there was way to much to catch up on.

So saturday during the day was spent opening and emptying 40 boxes of stock which should always be done in the mid week so over the weekend we can get the most out of what we have. Sale prices etc.

Anyways I got home and quite literally crashed. I really wanted to go ice-skating with you all-even though i suck and would probably have spent most of the time on my bum but hey-it sounded like fun when Ali and I wanted to go last week. Anyways-short story i slep for 12 hours staright and woke up feeling slightly better.

Anyone who knows me will know this is a far cry form the 3-4 ish hours i usually get but i think i needed it. Now all i need to do is figure out how to get rid of this tension headache that i have behind my eyes.

~.~

accordin to www.myheritage.com these are the celebrities i look most like and the percentage of likeness that is evident.

florence griffith joiner-72% (does looking like a sexy sports godess mean i can tone with no effort?)

ann hathaway-64% (not sure-she has nothing that could be considered a tan?)

minnie driver-61% (gorgeous woman with a lot of talent-i can deal)

beyonce-61% (gorgeous, talented, smart, owns own business, sings, dances and thinks for herself-loving it)

eva longoria-61% (a short actor/model-now thats what i like to see)

mira sorvino-60% (beautiful and smart and a natural blonde-hollywood needs more of those)

rose mcgowan-57% (absolutely lover her and am honoured)

So now its your turn, check it out and let me know!

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okies, Memoirs was all that I expected it to be. I loved it. What I could have done without would have been the grubby greater union cinema employee looking down her nose at me to say, 'and will anyone be joining you today' and then proceeding to tell me that no one sees movies by themselves anymore unless they really are alone.

Apart from that today was great. Not many people go back to me and those that did told me they couldn't come so I saw memoirs and did some shopping. It was great. I actually shopped as in tried stuff on and bought some stuff which I really like.

Anyways enjoyed myself-didn't get my hair done but thats number 2 on the list. Project for whenever I next get a day off.

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okies, very glad that the basic story line of Rent stayed the same because that show was very questionable.

And know to other news. I may be fired. Great!! I feel like a complete idiot and I cost the business about $400 this morning which may not sound like alot but it really is when you consider that we only make about $1200 on sundays. And this is enough to cover wages and not much left.

Anyways now that I feel sufficiently crap I have to get ready for work and try to talk my way out of my massive hole. And talk people into letting me keep my job.

~.~

hey...well wasn't last night fun? I enjoyed myself. I had time to catch up with Sary. Who I haven't seen in such a long time. It seems like forever. I know that meant that I didn't have time to catc up with all other peoples but that really was as a result of not seeing her in a while. I apologise if that rubs anyone the wrong way.

Anyways, Happy Birthday Nic-just imagine how much worse we could embaress you for your 21st. Also Happy Birthday for Jez-you got old too.

Well as suggested..i've just finished watching a movie/episode of a thingy that i'm watching at the moment. I spent a short while star gazing as well. Looking at the sky makes me think of how small and insignificant I really am in in comparison to the rest of the world. Don't get me wrong-I'm not underestimating the value of anything that I do-its just that when you compare that to everything else that goes on in the world it all seems so unimportant.

Tonight i spent some time skimming over the things I've written im my little notebook and I think I'm glad I got most of it on paper. For one thing it gives me something to set alight. But the other thing is that at least this stuff is out of my system and not running through my head as I know it probably would have been doing otherwise.

Anyways, looking forward to Rent tonight. It should be fun. I'm really not sure that I'm a huge fan of the musical factor or the show in itself but i think it would be good just to see everyone and have yet another excuse to get out of the house and work and see friends.

~.~

There are a billion people in China. It's not easy to be an individual in a crowd of more than a billion people. Think of it. More than a BILLION people. That means even if you're a one-in-a-million type of guy, there are still a thousand guys exactly like you.

A. Whitney Brown, The Big Picture

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Is it ever really possible to sucessfully run away from your past? Or would just be easy to say that if you try you will be destined to spend the rest of your life running?

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Just some of the cool shots I got at Mac Masters. I'm just sorry that I didn't get anymore. It was fun, but I have to admit I would have been way to stressed to stay up all week.

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Isn't it funny how the smallest of conversations can have you thinking for hours after you had them? I was thinking the other day of how other people see me and whether or not this is an accurate desription of who I think I am. I'd say not. I can see how it would be easy to assume that I dont really care about much. What other people think of me, how I see the world and other people etc. But then I also started to think that maybe I only have myself to blame for how other people see me and the misperceptions that go on here. I think that maybe it's mostly just my inner confusion, whether I like it or not, shows on the outside.

Further to this, would the world be any better off if everyone was seen exactly how they wished to be seen? This would probably cause more problems because how they wish to be seen may not always match up with who they really are. They could be just trying to hide something else.

Anyways just a few random thoughts that probably don't even make sense unless you were in my head when i wrote them or prepared to get in there. Maybe next time you are in my head you could do me a favour and do some cleaning? Try to get my thoughts into some semblance of order.

~.~

for the official record...

I did not wake up with a hangover two days ago-i woke up with really bad cramps. And i do remember the whole night pretty clearly.

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the innocent

the innocent
was young
[she's just twenty]
[she loved her first love passionately]
[she was hurt by him]
[she experienced loss of trust]
[she found her self, lost]
[she began to find her self]
[she found me]
[we danced]
she didn't know
what she was doing.

the innocent
has caused
[was a stimulus for]
[was a contributing factor in]
[was the exuse i gave myself]
[was a circumstantial influence on]
[had nothing to do with]
the breaking
of my heart.

the innocent
broke my heart
[i trusted]
[i gave love]
[i received love]
[i lusted]
[i wanted it to last]
[i feared loss of something i didn't have]
[i showed fear of loss]
[i lost it]
she didn't know
what she was doing


KOMNINOS

well finally! For some reason I haven't been able to get onto any site related to blogspot for the last week. Except for blogthings but I couldn't get onto anything else to post any blogthings. Oh well, the price we pay for technology.

Anyways not much happening. I'm now being trained as the new day person at work. Which is good. I have less evening to spend time in the not air-conned store of an evening. And more time doing the fun stuff during the days.

~.~

ok-a week later i finally have the computor back. It now has full net security stuff on it. On a flip side it is now slower and keeps kicking me off msn.

MY BIG NEWS!!! I got into uni. about three years after i wanted to, and a few temper tantrums later-but i finally made it in. I'm going to be at UWS-although i will be sorry to leave Mac. I actually liked it there. And I will be in a Bachelor of Community Welfare at Bankstown campus. Yay! and I also get to do about 400 hours of work placement in another country in my final year-depending on what i major in.

MY OTHER BIG NEWS!!! I'm not getting married-just yet. Just thought I'd add that after the most beautiful and classy wedding and reception that Laura and Brendon put on. Its great to see that 2 people who love each other can get to spen everyday for the rest of their lives with each other. Yes believe it or not I'm not as big a cynic as i make out to be. Lets face it who could be after saturdays display of love and effection. I wish them both the best of luck with everything they persue together in the future.

And in work news-Nige is back with even more stubborn minded opinions. I know he's entitled to them but i don't think he realises that there are definately more constuctive ways of voicing them, especially when dumping a bag of rubbish at ones feet. To his credit he realised that both Katie and myself were annoyed at him and not only offered to buy morning tea but also bought lunch.

~.~

ok, work is getting insane. I really don't understand why people are not willing to give Katie and James more of a fair go. It's not fair on either one of them.

On Katie's part, I love working with her and I don't understand everyone's problem. We have the same mindset-if you don't want to be there and aren't prepared to do the work, leave so someone more deserving can give it a go. We both agree that if you don't want to work by the rules don't bother staying.

And James-he is such a sweetie. The main reason he isn't learning as fast as Dan is because people seem to be less willing to teach him the shortcuts of the store and it's all the little things that make it just that little bit easier.

It seems to be a common story these days. Wires getting crossed. Messages getting mixed. People getting things round the wrong way. Will this never end? How does that make you feel?

~.~

You Are Creepy

Serial killers would run away from you in a flash.

How Scary Are You?

ok i have a somewhat of a minor problem. A few friends of mine had mentioned over the last few weeks that they would be interested in finding a job either in addition to their current one or in order to change jobs. The problem now is, that i have about half a dozen at least or my closest friends and aquaitences all competing for the same position. Not positions, but poisition. Singular. So what ever happens, at least half a dozen people that i know will be disappointed in my efforts at finding them a job. I'd like to apologise in advance for anybody who is disappointed by my thoughtless gesture of recommending about 6 people for the one job.

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ok-we need to do fun stuff! I'm so bored and restless these days. I want to have a big night out that is more than just another New Year's celebration. I want to do stuff that we don't usually do. But more that this-I want to be able to organise stuff like this with the reassurance that people will atually come as well. I don't even know what I want these days.

~.~

Your Observation Skills Get A D+

You know that you remembered to put on underwear today...But really, that's about it!

How Observant Are You?

You Passed the US Citizenship Test

Congratulations - you got 10 out of 10 correct!

Could You Pass the US Citizenship Test?

Just got back from dinner at Mother India...great restaurant in Mid Dural. Very small with only a few servers but it was excellent. The food were in edible portions-none of this too big too eat stuff. And it was actually pretty reasonably priced too-it was great and for once I didn't feel absolutley suffocated by my family. I'm back know ans I'm still not feeling suffocated-it's great! I think it may have something to do with the fact that I had the whole day off work and I feel not so stressed and I love today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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I am ready to quit. As soon as i find a new job i will be going leaving my current crap-hole and hopfully into a slightly less crappy hole. I am so sick of dealing with customers yelling abuse at me down the phone and I'm really sick of the fact that the only reason that they are yelling abuse at me is because Nigel has not been bothered to manage the store properly and that he's gone on a bloody holiday while leaving the rest of us behind to deal with it. I will not put up with this for any longer than i have to-anybody who knows of somewher looking that i may actually have a chance with-i'd love to hear from you-cause i hate my job officially and i am a strong believer in staying at a job because you like it not because of the pay or the benefits.!!!

BTW-congrats addy!

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Your Inner Child Is Sad

You're a very sensitive soul. You haven't grown that thick skin that most adults have. Easily hurt, you tend to retreat to your comfort zone. You don't let many people in - unless you've trusted them for a long time.

How Is Your Inner Child?

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free. In love, you feel the most alive when everything is uncertain, one moment heaven... the next moment hell. You'd like to your lover to think you are flexible and ready for anything! You would be forced to break up with someone who was arrogant, acting like the dictator of your life. Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. Your risk of cheating is low. Even if you're tempted, you'd try hard not to do it. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

The back return wall of the store has officially disappeared again-consider me crying and pulling my hair out in dismay.

~.~

Okies-well the last few days have been full of stuff to do and people to meet.

It all started with work on New Years Eve-very boring stuff but essential in this day and age where for some reason society has placed a high level of importance on the stuff. Anyways following that we went to Amy's house which was very fun and interesting as it always is when us girls get together. And 'to Grandmother's House we Didn't go. No grandmothers were allowed at this party-in fact they were more or less self invited grandmothers-that's not too say that they didn't place an interesting value on the night. (admit it amy they always make the night interesting)

Anyways the Callea performance wan't as boring as I thought it would be-he's actually a pretty good performer when push comes to shove. Of course it definately helps that they had Sophie Monk performing right after him because she can make anyone sound good.

Ayways after all this we left and went back to Kev's and here we ended up drinking and drawing interesting tattoos on each other. Be'cs left hand turned out better than the others.

Anyways woke up had breakfast and then onto other things-like talking and mixing-watched finding Nemo. Which means I have now watched that movie one too many times-it was also playing when i got to work yesterday afternoon.

And for the record tim, I was most definately still going at 6 and still at 11 which was exactly how long it took me to have a shower and eat dinner with my family and draft most of this and do a bit of cleaning. Mind you i did sleep till 10 this morning but apart from that i was all good.

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Oh, guess what peoples?! I went shopping this afternoon...AND...I found the most perfect dress this afternoon...AND...I actually bought it.

I wasn't too keen on the price but I hate spending any kind of money higher than the price of fish. It's really nice though and it actually fits-no alterations needed. The first dress i have ever bought that doesn't need any changes. I love it!

Getting my hair cut tomorrow and i think I might dye it too but not sure. Too much thinking required of that line of thought right now. And not if I want blue going in it when we go away.

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