draft from ages ago that never go published....that i just found...at a time when i realised i hadn't posted in a while...and...


tim says...

Anything going on with all this 'love' talk at the moment? The picture, the cartoon, your MSN name, etc. One might think our Pez had gone and gotten herself smitten with someone. I don't mean to be rude, insensitive or intrude.

payal says...

actually i hadn't noticed...(firstly)i figured that people may have jumped to the wrong conclusion about me posting that last cartoon but really, i just thought the message it sent out was actually pretty spot on. Not in terms of love but in terms of domestic violence. (propbably the exact opposite of love and peoples first conclusions)

Secondly the picture...maybe i really am just a softie at heart. It was sweet and I looked at it at a time when i felt pretty isolated and alone and it make me feel better. Not because of the whole couple thing (I'm still a cynic when it comes to love) but because it is very simple but as an artwork has so many different levels and art makes me lose myself for a little bit. Would you believe I sat looking at it for about 15mins when i first saw it? In this case, I liked it and it reminded me of things that (ask me again in person...cant find the right words right now.)

Lastly...my msn name. I wanted people to think, not about me but of what love does to people. If you really love someone then you will stick by them no matter what and while i find the physical violence on the slight extreme, I think that this is what love is. It shouldn't be a compromise...you should be able to vent and scream at the person (not necessarily about them) and feel better after with out them feeling targetted and belittled.

You are not intruding (in fact if you want you are welcome to hit post when you read this) I consider myself an open person. (Distinctive from easy to read) Open in the sense that if you ask me a serious question about my opinion or me or anything I will do my best to answer honestly...I have nothing to hide, and while some people know more about me than others i really don't mind if they share this information. I know that I'm not the easiest person to get along with sometimes and this is probably because I'm not used to sharing my feelings but if you ask me 'how do you feel?' and i have no idea I will try my hardest to put a name to what I'm feeling for you.

Ok, so maybe you didn't need the essay response to a couple of lines which wasn't really and essay sort of question but I don't think I can sum it up in a couple of lines-sorry. But hey if you dont like if you always have the option of just not reading it.

~.~ :D