Can you say crap day. No sleep. Get to uni and the coffee was bitter. Ok the psych lecture was good. Crabby after that. Sit down to wait for photocopies and close my eyes. [next thing i know i'm being woken up by 2 loud ladies who really only wanted the couch to sit on while eating lunch.] B? Please no more time jokes!! You might think they are funny but I cant deal with them on a good day. I'm way to podantic about time. Then the tute forced me to think-not a bad thing ordinarily-but really not a good idea when i'm going on no sleep. I realise the no sleep is my problem and I really try not to take it out on people but I get impatient and I think i pissed off way too many people today.

The thing is I get annoyed at myself for how much things annoy me when I'm sleepy and then i get crabby because things are annoying me and then I get even more crabby because I know I'm being unreasonable and then I get crabby because I know if i werent tired I wouldnt be crabby and then I'm crabby for being unreasonable about everything when its my fault to start off with...and somewhere in all that I start to break and then I realise I'm breaking and I start taking it out on other people even more and I get home feeling tired, drained, exhausted and so unbelievably guilty at my unreasonableness.

And I still have a bloody flute lesson to do and I cant stand how much the little girl talks because we never get any actual fluting done and we have no time for aural exercises or new pieces and I know I'm going to be crabby then and then I have to come home and face my family...,

Sometimes I wish i could just curl up and forget about everything and start all over again...

Hey who would have known...i've hit 200 posts as well.