hey...well wasn't last night fun? I enjoyed myself. I had time to catch up with Sary. Who I haven't seen in such a long time. It seems like forever. I know that meant that I didn't have time to catc up with all other peoples but that really was as a result of not seeing her in a while. I apologise if that rubs anyone the wrong way.

Anyways, Happy Birthday Nic-just imagine how much worse we could embaress you for your 21st. Also Happy Birthday for Jez-you got old too.

Well as suggested..i've just finished watching a movie/episode of a thingy that i'm watching at the moment. I spent a short while star gazing as well. Looking at the sky makes me think of how small and insignificant I really am in in comparison to the rest of the world. Don't get me wrong-I'm not underestimating the value of anything that I do-its just that when you compare that to everything else that goes on in the world it all seems so unimportant.

Tonight i spent some time skimming over the things I've written im my little notebook and I think I'm glad I got most of it on paper. For one thing it gives me something to set alight. But the other thing is that at least this stuff is out of my system and not running through my head as I know it probably would have been doing otherwise.

Anyways, looking forward to Rent tonight. It should be fun. I'm really not sure that I'm a huge fan of the musical factor or the show in itself but i think it would be good just to see everyone and have yet another excuse to get out of the house and work and see friends.

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There are a billion people in China. It's not easy to be an individual in a crowd of more than a billion people. Think of it. More than a BILLION people. That means even if you're a one-in-a-million type of guy, there are still a thousand guys exactly like you.

A. Whitney Brown, The Big Picture

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Is it ever really possible to sucessfully run away from your past? Or would just be easy to say that if you try you will be destined to spend the rest of your life running?

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Just some of the cool shots I got at Mac Masters. I'm just sorry that I didn't get anymore. It was fun, but I have to admit I would have been way to stressed to stay up all week.

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Isn't it funny how the smallest of conversations can have you thinking for hours after you had them? I was thinking the other day of how other people see me and whether or not this is an accurate desription of who I think I am. I'd say not. I can see how it would be easy to assume that I dont really care about much. What other people think of me, how I see the world and other people etc. But then I also started to think that maybe I only have myself to blame for how other people see me and the misperceptions that go on here. I think that maybe it's mostly just my inner confusion, whether I like it or not, shows on the outside.

Further to this, would the world be any better off if everyone was seen exactly how they wished to be seen? This would probably cause more problems because how they wish to be seen may not always match up with who they really are. They could be just trying to hide something else.

Anyways just a few random thoughts that probably don't even make sense unless you were in my head when i wrote them or prepared to get in there. Maybe next time you are in my head you could do me a favour and do some cleaning? Try to get my thoughts into some semblance of order.

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