And now for something different...

My day today was actually really good...i guess after yesterday there really was only one way left to go. But not going to be negetive today. I got to work at 830 and I didnt start till 10 so that gave me sometime to figure out what some of my psych readings actually meant. Had my day of work, which was surprisingly relaxed. But we were still under 2grand at 6pm which for a friday night is way, way beyond bad. Anyways...will get paid till 7 but left at 6 to go to the pub. Not bad considering i was supposed to work till 10. I will definately get paid because it was the manager who took me up there, just not all the way up to 10...she though that was a little unfair.

Had a great night...filled my lungs with more smoke than I expected but...meh. [Stupid Pokie rooms] Had a couple of drinks-but they were only Cokes damn green p's. [7months and counting] Organised to go and get somewhat pissed next friday...highly unlikely but if anyone would like to do something {edit} they can feel free to join me up at the 'Winsto'. {edit}

Now home and really tired but am going to do it all again tomorrow....work at 9-7. Running out of essentials so i have to do a shop tomorrow...which sux because I'm also running out of essential money. Garrrr!!

Glad that yesterday's over, todays better and tommorow's a blank slate...

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DISCLAIMER: Ok, so i've just looked back at the type of things I've written recently and they seem largely negetive so i do regret this post...but it is how i feel. I do promise that there were plenty of great days between these crap ones but its the crap that are standing out at the moment.

Hmm, where to start. It would appear that I have had another crap day. I dont know why really...I woke up really excited about my day...but nothing seemed to go and by about 12 i was in a pretty foul mood which really only serves to make everything seem worse than it actually is.

It wasnt really anything specific...well maybe it was. I noticed it was sunny today. I like the rain so i wasnt happy about that first up. I guess today I was just over thinking. There's so much I want to say and I know it would make things so much easier for myself and other people. In the sense that people would be able to understand why some of the simplest things can sometimes make me uncomfortable beyond belief.

I had a fight with a co-worker. Never a good thing after which I actually had a cry. I maintain that I was born with out tear-ducts so this was a feat in itself.

I have to make UAC decisions for the 4th year in a row. You can imagine how stressful this was and it doesnt get any easier with experience.

Huge money issues going on at the moment. Feel like my life should not revolve around money...but it does and that frustrates me to no end.

People around me are having a hard time and I dont feel like its fair that I voice myopinions on these sorts of trivial things. Which I guess just puts more pressure on me. I want to help them more than I want to help myself. I guess thats my own fault.

mehmehmeh

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